It scares me how well I know and understand people. Today was no exception….well actually last friday was no exception. I am very aware of how people work and how their needs, their wants, and their expectations fuel their behavior. I understand that people will continue to do what doesn’t work for them, continue to remain in a negative cycle, until they’ve had it. There comes a point where you say “enough”. I understand this so well, and yet I can’t do anything but be there for the people I love until they scream “enough”. I know this with friends, with relationships, and with my family.
I wasn’t going to run, even though I had planned on doing so. Then I remembered the words from my good friend (and old college roommate) Tara, who has completed the NYC Marathon. She said to me, ‘If I planned on backing off every time running got difficult, I would hang up my shoes and take up knitting’, a quote by marathoner Desiree Davila. Now, I’m not really sure if I would take up knitting (I can’t even think of an activity I would replace my sports with…), but I know that if I’m going to make running a lifestyle, and not just a hobby, then I need to continue on regardless of the circumstances.
I wound up going to golds because it was raining, and banged out 4 miles in 35:07…even with a really tight shin and ankle that made me stop several times to stretch. Even if it was a really slow run that I wasn’t that impressed by. Even if my brain was going a mile a minute. But I did it anyway. So for that I am proud, even if it was a terrible, horrible, no good, very bad day. I think its a sushi for dinner kind of night.
“When you move like a jellyfish, rhythm is nothing. You go with the flow, you don’t stop.” -Jack Johnson